Dreamer

It's been one of those days, when you feel the weight of an oncoming, pending change. All that can be done is to wait... hold your breath, and look within yourself for the ability to make the future of the path you're walking turn the way you want it to. This is when one looks back and appreciates the days previous, knowing that they are days that have been survived... those days are what made you who you are, and they got you to where you are today.

Unfortunately... for me, it's not easy to hold my breath for long, and I fear that I won't have to strength to keep my road from shaking.

The part I do like, however, about this worrisome fear is that it leads me to Jesus. Trusting is hard, but it's a worthy cause to pursue. I do like leaning on Him, no matter what my future will hold, whether it unfolds the way I want it to.

There's something great about walking with Jesus. Even though I can't control much, I know I can turn to Him when needed, and I don't have to walk anywhere alone. It's easier to rest a little more when remembering that a loving, all-knowing God is in charge of my future.

I don't believe in chasing your dreams; I believe that if you chase God, He will bring your dreams, and so much more, to you.

(photo from weheartit.com)

2 Years Old Today (:

Two years ago today, I followed Jesus into the water. I was baptized in His name and was made new. I still remember everything as if it was yesterday. Heart racing, being in the water which felt bottomless -- wanting to cry and laugh and dance and yell. I remember coming out of the water, feeling a piece of Heaven in the presence of all of us who were surrounding the pool.

When, I opened my eyes, things were different, I was different! The world was brighter... not brighter in a holier sense -- not at all. But I could see. The battle field was emphasized. The good was easier to discern from the evil. And I was ready. I wanted to fight. I wanted the enemy to come at me, just so I could put him back in his place.

So, it's been two years. And it makes me wonder what I've done. What have I done to serve God in the last two years? I contemplated making a list. (I love lists.) But I'm afraid the list would be heartrendingly short. Therefore, I'm looking forward at what I can do, what I will do.

And I'm excited.

A Few Things Worth Saying

It's that time again, where so much is going on that my post somewhat take the format of a list. Here we go. (:

Megan left for Haiti yesterday for Leve Project stuff. They're going to look at buildings an properties. They're looking for the where that God wants for the project. Pray for them! I'm sure big things will happen!!

I got home from a study abroad program for college. My classmates and I went to Italy for ten days. It was quite the adventure! I contemplated doing a post for Italy all for itself, but honestly, I wouldn't know where to start! For those of you on facebook, there are a lot of pictures. For those of you who are not, you'll just have to take my word for it. (:

As of June 1, 2010, I am a driver! (during daylight hours and with a licensed driver over 21 years of age in the front seat.) My learner's permit is beautiful, guys. It makes me heart skip a beat every time I look at it... *sigh*

Until Next Time. (:

I.Love.Leading.Worship.

See how much I love this boy?

This how I love Haiti. I wish I could hug the whole country, squeezing it in attempts to show them my love for them all.

I've been up since 6:00 this morning. It is now almost 9, and I can't bring myself to do anything "productive." Haiti is engulfing me today. Doing anything that isn't for, about, or that moves me toward Haiti seems trite. I have plenty that I should be doing, but I just want Haiti. That's all I want. And if I can't be there, I want my life here as Haiti-filled as possible. Everything here feels wrong.

The television is driving me crazy. I don't care about weight-watchers, nor do I care about the woman who murdered her daughter. When there is a nation of people living on the streets, NO ONE should care! If I had it my way, I'd have Haiti on the TV all day. That way, people could watch Haiti 24/7 -- the badness and the loveliness that fabricates Haiti. The help they need, and the love they deserve. Yes, it is four months after the earthquake, and yes, I still want coverage on Haiti -- "silly me." It is necessary.

My friend was back in Haiti last March. A woman spoke to her saying, "we are now out in the streets, you-you. Like trash. But we're not trash."

You tell me how anything that is playing on your television is more important than that.

Today, Happiness Is...

• finding free chord charts online that I don't need to fix.

• taking my last final = no more college until my Italy study trip.

• the sweet boy's prayers for my success.

• seeing my room clean. (Megan just threw all of our stuff which was on the floor on our beds.)

• waking up and remembering that I have red hair now.

• knowing I can talk to my Jesus whenever I please.

• this episode of Gilmore Girls.

• WeHeartIt pictures.

• seeing Megan dress up like a girl.

• yummy dinner tonight with my grandparents.

(photo mine)

Picture Adventures!

Yesterday was a splendid day. "Why?" you ask? Well, I have recently become Sara's photography assistant. Yesterday, it was our job to photograph the beautiful wedding of Melissa and Ryan. This was my first time having a photography job, and I'm thankful it was with Sara. She was extremely fun to work with. And upon finding that being a wedding photographer is a hard, sweat-producing, on-your-feet job, I had a great time. It was wonderfully glorious. I excitingly look forward to the weddings and shoots we have coming up. (:

A wonderful thing about being Sara's assistant is that 1) she lets me take pictures(: 2) she is oodles of fun(: and 3) she lets me keep my pictures as my own and still gives me photo credit. So, here is just some of my work from last night.

I love her. (: