Gratitude

i was thinking how Haitians are so grateful for what they have and how they don't loose faith because they live in poverty. and all of a sudden this song came on in the car. (it was one of those freaky but exciting God moments).

Send some rain, would You send some rain?

'Cause the earth is dry and needs to drink again

And the sun is high and we are sinking in the shade

Would You send a cloud, thunder long and loud?

Let the sky grow black and send some mercy down

Surely You can see that we are thirsty and afraid

But maybe not, not today

Maybe You'll provide in other ways

And if that's the case . . .

We'll give thanks to You

With gratitude

For lessons learned in how to thirst for You

How to bless the very sun that warms our face

If You never send us rain
Daily bread, give us daily bread

Bless our bodies, keep our children fed

Fill our cups, then fill them up again tonight

Wrap us up and warm us through

Tucked away beneath our sturdy roofs

Let us slumber safe from danger's view this time

Or maybe not, not today

Maybe You'll provide in other ways

And if that's the case . . .

We'll give thanks to You

With gratitude...

i know i said i wasn't going to make another video for a while but i was thinking about making this video before i even knew how to.

again, i have absolutely no patients to fix the blurry pictures without throwing the laptop out the window!!

Pictures by: the members of the July 2007 Halos Medical Missions Team, stolen from blogs (sorry), and a couple by Mama Chechen (Gretchen) and Leesabet (Elisabeth "Lizzie")

Music by: Nichole Nordeman, song: Gratitude

Joyeux Noel!! -if thats how you spell it

-sorry the pictures are blurry but it was the 1st video thing-y i made and i spent forever on it and simply DON'T have the patients to fix it! :) -

The Closest We're Getting to a White Christmas:

Mwen renmen ou!!

Merry Christmas!

To Choose LIFE

there are 2 BIG reasons why i want to help others medically as a career. 1) i KNOW that it is what God wants, it is His Will. 2) i would get to contribute to the continuation of LIFE! how amazing?! i mean, to know that you were the person to let some one live longer, to be with their loved ones longer, to laugh more, to learn more, to walk by faith longer! not that i have accomplished that yet, but i want to.

last july at the clinic, i got to see a baby being born. it was live changing! as Lyndy (the baby) was approaching the earth, you could see God working. you could see, right in front of you, God creating another person to learn, follow, and teach His word. you could SEE God creating new life!!

i want to give the people of Haiti the medical help, who normally wouldn't have that option. this is the way He wants me to serve Him. by helping those in poverty extend their health.

i believe that life is God's, and ONLY God's. it is He who created it and if life is to end, then He is the ONLY one with the right to end it. (don't even get me start on abortions)!

(sorry this was kinda random, this whole topic has been floating around in my for a while now)

Why Am I Here, Lord?

its been kind of hard for me the last couple of days. As this season unfolds more and more, i realize that the chance for me to see your beautiful children again is diminishing. Which breaks me inside. i miss them all so much and wish to meet the handful of kids who i didn't get a chance to meet last July. i really do love your children. i really do long to see them. but the worst part is that my sadness hits me in overwhelming amounts at the most random times. i don't care how i get there, i can sit among the bagage in the plane for all i care! i miss my "peeps", cousins, friends, my twin, and my baby boy, Reece.

Lord,
please make it clear when You want me to return to Haiti. i don't understand why You would bring me there, let me fall in love with that place and bring me home to mourn over my miss for it. why do You want me here, in the States? why here? what good do i have to offer here? why not put me in the place i love the most, and get the most love, and were i am happiest? i don't understand. yes, i want more than anything to be in Your Will, and i want to walk by Faith. But why is Your will for me here? and why aren't the streets of Haiti my Faith Walk? i thank you for all that You have given me here but why don't You give me Haiti now, which is the only thing i ask of You? In your mysterious but loving name i pray, Amen.